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United

Title : United
Author : Bluey
Rating : NC-17 Violent and sexually explicit.
Pairing : Chiana/Zhaan/Other
SUMMARY : Zhaan has saved Thäa's body, but she has to deal now with her fragile mind, and Moya's grief.
Spoilers : Set somewhere between "Hidden Memory" and "The Locket".
Author's Notes : Sequel to Rainbow Girl with references to Nightmare in Blue.






Moya is in mourning. Discovering her dying mother has been quite a shock for the young Leviathan. Maybe she was hoping to find her, to tell her she was free again to roam the Universe. No one knows... except maybe for Pilot, but he won't tell.

Thäa is adapting to her new life. Finding her way home isn't a priority right now. She understands that her companions can't safely get out from the Uncharted Territories. Even in here, freedom is still a breath away from being lost.

It took her awhile to choose her own private room. Not that there weren't enough to pick from! Those near the engine core were somewhat noisy. Those near the central chamber would need a heavy curtain, because it was one of the most used passageways. She didn't want to be too close to anyone in particular, in case there were some frictions she didn't know about. Her heart finally has chosen for her, picking a room on Zhaan's level, but not to close, so neither would lose their own privacy.

Chiana loves interior decoration, especially since they have looted Moya's mother. They got so much stuff in those crates and boxes, it feels like a day at the market. . . without having to pay for anything! But she's a practical girl, and Thäa's room ends up with very little changes, nothing major, a reclining chair made from one of the container, a gift from D'argo, a cute little cushion to go on it, given by Rygel, which has more than enough of those on his bed, and two metrons of very expensive looking pink fabric Aeryn found in a crate, to serve as a bedspread. Zhaan blessed her room and gave her an amulet to hang over her bed, to ward off nightmares. Meanwhile, Stark made her new boots from leather found in the crates.

Getting to the next commercial planet, Thäa stayed on Moya, having all she needs and wants. Unbeknownst to her, Zhaan traded in medicine for more fabric, so her lover could get clothes that fitted her better than the few garments given in the first few days aboard Moya. In fact, she got so much fabric, it takes half the space of Stark's little workshop on tier four. Big crates, opened for Thäa's inspection, have their content spilled out like colourful guts. The Féerian steps over some expensive Delvian velvesine and snatches a piece of rough black leather.

- That would do it, she says, trying to come back to the Banik without loosing her balance.

He picks her up by the waist and puts her down near his working table.

- Thank you, she says, blushing. This is the perfect leather for the belt, strong and thick. That's how you can carve the design in. Anything thinner and you would punch through it in no time.

- We need the exact measurements, says Stark as he examines the quality of the hide. You said it would have to be very tight to look Féerian?

- Like a second skin, says Thäa, putting her palm on her belly.

She takes her hand off as Stark circles her waist with the knotted string. He slides the string downward for the lower measurement of the belt, and Thäa bursts into laughter.

- It tickles! she exclaims to Stark's surprise. Here, let me help you.

She takes her tunic off in one swift move, and lets it fall to the ground, next to her.

- Now you'll get the exact measurements, she says, teasing. I want it tight, but not constrictive.

Stark starts again, but this time, the end of the string brushing against Thäa's skin makes her laugh again. She holds her breath to let him finish, and looks away to get her mind off the irresistible need to push him away. In the distance, a little light brightens, then another next to it. Those two little red lights, not moving but slowly pulsating, capture Thäa's attention. She whispers 'no' many times, louder and louder, and grabs him by the fabric of his vest, like she's about to faint. Stark notices how different Thäa's reaction has become, and he looks around at whatever she's staring at. The big frame of the Luxan blocks his sight, then a closed fist comes crashing on his jaw.

- She said no, you frelling bastard! D'argo growls.

Stark falls backwards under the blow, but D'argo catches him by the fabric of his vest and hits him again. Thäa looks on, terrified.

- I'll show you how I deal with rape, growls D'argo as his large fist hits the Banik's chest once, then again.

Stark would have fallen backward, if D'argo hadn't thought of holding him close by the collar of his vest. Squeezing the air out of him, and pummeling him harder and harder, D'argo doesn't see Thäa moving sideways. She's too scared to utter a single sound, but she won't let her friend down. If only she had a weapon!

At this moment, she sees the shine of the blade in D'argo's hand. She rushes to the wall, pulls down the panel of the control box and tears off a sizzling cable. Stark falls down near her, bloody and unconscious, as the Luxan's rage is spent.

- Don't move! she yells at the towering Luxan, showing him the electric cable.

Thäa pulls a bit more on the cable, to allow her an attack, but the thick living cord starts vibrating, then wraps itself around her wrist. Before she has time to understand what's happening, the end of the coil touches her, sending high voltage into her body. She falls down in a lump, next to Stark.

D'argo looks on, stunned. He had seen her brandishing the coil like a sword, but the cable didn't move at all. She held it, then her legs gave out from under her, like an invisible hand had knocked her out.

Coming to his senses, D'argo taps on his comm badge.

- Zhaan? asks D'argo. Can you come down to Stark's hideout. Thäa has fainted on me.

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Zhaan comes out of her meditation at the sound of her name being called. It takes less than a microt before she's dressed again and running out of her room. She finds D'argo kneeling down to Thäa's side, as Stark slowly recovers, by himself.

- What have you done to her? she asks the Luxan.

- I'm not the one to blame here, he answers roughly as Zhaan pushes him aside.

- What happened, dear? she asks the girl as she slowly opens her eyes.

- Help Stark, stop the blood, Thäa whispers frantically, trying to get up.

She wriggles in Zhaan's embrace, trying to move closer to Stark, but the Delvian won't let her stand up. Stark looks at his clothes and doesn't find any blood. To Zhaan's quizzical look, he shrugs, not knowing what's Thäa is talking about. She babbles about being watched from a distance, D'argo attacking Stark with a long knife for no reason, then the coil attacking her when she tried to take his defense.

- Is this the knife you saw? asks D'argo, taking his small knife from his belt.

Thäa shakes her head no.

- He used his fist, says Stark, as he rubs his jaw. He has quite a punch if I might add.

- You son of a hasmot! barks D'argo. I wish I had used a knife! No one is getting raped on this ship as long as I'm here to…

- Stop, says Zhaan, holding up her hand. You will tell your story one at the time, and no interruption.

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D'argo starts telling his side of the story. Pilot asked him to get down to the third tier to check the atmospherics. As he was passing by, he saw Stark groping the Féerian as she was trying to push him away. He rushed in to her defense and knocked out the Banik. Thäa pulled a cord from the panel and passed out.

Stark's story is shorter. He was trying to take Thäa's measurements for a Féerian leather belt when she became quite rigid, then grabbed his clothes like she was afraid to fall, her gaze fixed to a point in the distance. After that, he doesn't remember much.

Zhaan nods and turns her attention to Thäa.

- I saw a knife, she says, looking at the ringed hand holding hers. I also saw the coil wrapping itself around my wrist, and I passed out because it sent high voltage through my body.

D'argo looks at the coil and pushes it back into the box, where it immediately fuses with its other end.

- Temperature control, he says, closing the little trap door. It has less than three kerzts of power, not enough to awake a newborn trelkez.

Thäa looks crushed and lets Zhaan takes her in her embrace. Pilot clears his throat and asks D'argo if he could check the atmospherics. Zhaan nods to him and he departs, without a single word of apology. By now, Stark has recovered enough to stand up. He fetches Thäa's tunic and comes back to give it to her.

- It was my fault, she sighs. His Highness told me to be careful about nudity.

- No, it wasn't your fault, not your fault at all, says Stark with much emphasis. D'argo was mislead by appearances.

- You're hurt, Zhaan says, looking at his jaw.

She holds up her hand to take away the pain, but Stark moves back.

- You've taken so much pain lately, Zhaan, he says in a soft voice. Let me deal with this one.

- No, says Thäa.

She beckons him to come closer, and he does so, under Zhaan's scrutiny. Thäa's shaky hand flutters to him, landing almost in his eye. He leans his head on it, and closes his eye, as the healing process takes place. The bruises start to fade on contact.

When the hand moves away, his chest is still sore, but the bones have been mended, and the pain is more a vague memory clinging to his brain than actual injuries.

- Thank you, Thäa, he whispers, grateful.

- You're welcome, she answers, smiling.

Zhaan lets her stand up to get dressed, but Thäa's legs buckle under her weight. Zhaan immediately puts her hands on the girl's waist, to hold her upright for a few microts, time enough to put on the tunic, then motions to take her in her arms.

- I can walk, says Thäa quickly. I'm not hurt. I know that now.

- What did you see, Thäa? What was behind me?

Stark's voice is a bit too eager and Thäa starts to shake again. Her skin colouration shifts from soft waves of peaches and greens to blotches of blue and pink. Her breathing becomes shallow, her forehead glistens with perspiration.

- Later, Stark, says Zhaan in a soft voice. I'm taking her to her room.

Stark nods and gets back to his working table. Zhaan tries again to take Thäa in her arms, but the young Féerian vehemently refuses to be carried away. Zhaan looks over her shoulder as they exit, arm in arm. There is no little red light at the back of the room, only crates of fabric, Moya's golden skin and soft yellow light.

As they slowly walk to Thäa's room, both of them notice the change in temperature from one tier to the other. Pilot was right to ask D'argo for a manual check of the atmospherics. Moya's mourning has affected more than her psyche. Maybe she's sick. Could the cargo taken on the dead ship have infected her? Or maybe it was from the air and electric lines connecting both ships for a few days?

Thäa's room is unusually warm and damp, one of the problems she'll have to live with until Pilot has found a way to repair the atmospherics. When Zhaan tries to gently push her to the bed, she resists.

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- Only if you lie down with me, she says, pouting like a stubborn child.

- Is this how you intend to get rest? asks Zhaan, playfully.

Thäa puts her arms around her lover's waist and nods. Zhaan smiles but doesn't move. Thäa's hands inch down a bit, teasingly, lower and lower, until she cups both roundness in the palms of her hands.

- It lifts my spirit, she says, looking straight into the blue eyes. I come from a race that need physical contact more than any other. The Elders have told me so. I'm not making this up.

- I never said you were, says Zhaan, her hands playing into the long silvery hair. My race also has great appetites.

She bends down slowly and, as Thäa lifts her head to keep staring into her eyes, Zhaan's lips touch hers.

- I thank the Goddess every day for putting you in my path, she whispers as she circles her shoulders with her long blue arms.

In one swift quick move, she snatches her up in her arms, laughing.

- I told you I would carry you, she says playfully as she takes her to the bed and lays her down as slowly as she had picked her up fast.

- You win, says Thäa, smiling. Come, lay down next to me, please.

A sudden starburst pushes Zhaan directly onto the bed. In any other circumstances, it might have been funny, but knowing Moya is sick doesn't make this sudden move reassuring. Zhaan taps on her comm badge.

- Pilot, she asks, are you supposed to warn us before Starburst?

- I'm sorry, Zhaan, says Pilot's contrite voice. I did not initiate Starburst. Moya jumped so quickly, I had no time to tell you.

- Where are we going?

- Moya found a planet that might help her to heal, he says, sounding not too convinced by his own explanation. It was at the limit of our long-range scanner.

- Is it bad? asks Thäa, any thought of intimacy gone from her mind.

- I don't know, says Zhaan, putting her head on the pillow.

She sighs heavily. It's always like this on Moya. A microt, you're enjoying yourself and the next, you're neck deep in troubles.

- Zhaan, we're still waiting for you in Command, comms in Aeryn, sounding angry.

- Go, says Thäa. I'll take a nap.

- Don't you want to come? asks Zhaan, getting up.

Thäa's colours shifts. She never was good at lying, and that blue lady sure knows how to read her. Slowly she gets up, takes Zhaan's hand and walk beside her, in silence.

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The planet is at the right distance from its sun to have luscious gold and green vegetation, big rocky mountains, large blue seas and fluffy white clouds. The whole crew gather around the console, looking at the screen, except for Rygel, which hovers behind them, yawning audibly.

- No sign of its inhabitants, says Pilot, looking at his console, though it once sustained sentient life. I can still locate small groups of buildings, dirt roads and…

- Why did they left? asks Thäa, as she looks on to the blue-green planet filling the screen.

- Why did Moya take us here? asks Aeryn, more practical.

- The rim of the iomosphere is charged with particles that Moya finds soothing, answers Pilot.

- She found that from a long-range scan? asks D'argo big rumbling voice.

- Drasnak particles are easy to recognise, D'argo, says Pilot, chastising him from being so suspicious. They are emitted from the sun and gather in the outer layer of the iomosphere. She took the readings from the sun and extrapolated the best location to saturate her outer hull.

- Logical, says Zhaan, looking at D'argo. We wanted her to get better, didn't we?

- She usually needs us for that, says Rygel, floating a bit closer to the group. We feel cheated when she's behaving like a big girl.

Zhaan, Stark and Aeryn nod, but D'argo is still not convinced.

- The atmospherics weren't crippled, he explains. They were simply out of line.

- The hydric system IS crippled, says Pilot. I can barely maintain it. Still running analysis on the…

- I'm going in the den, says D'argo, cutting Pilot in mid-sentence.

- Wait, says Aeryn, holding him by the sleeve. Why can't you believe what he's saying?

- Moya gets startled at the slightest floating piece of junk we pass by, and now she can heal herself, even when Pilot doesn't even know what she has? It's a bit hard to swallow, isn't it?

He looks around, trying to find a compassionate face, but all he sees is disbelief.

- Come to your senses! he says. Moya is feverish. She could be taking us all into a trap and we'll jump right in. Is that how you want to end your life?

- Why can't we let Moya heal herself? asks Aeryn icily. There are no guns pointed at us, no one tracking us. Someone lived down there, and died. Corpses aren't dangerous.

- My planet still exists, says Stark dreamily. There's no one there, only souls and memories roaming through the cities, wailing, calling, asking for deliverance, not able to...

- STOP IT! yells Aeryn. No one asked you anything.

Stark bows his head in obedience, taking a step back, even if he wasn't in anyone's way. Thäa, still holding on to Zhaan's hand for courage and company, takes his too, and smiles at him. Zhaan smiles too, happy that at least, some of the crew seems to get along during this crisis.

- There is some signs of battle, says Pilot, looking at his console. The vegetation has covered much of the surface, but the buildings are in ruins.

- Scarrans or Peacekeepers? asks D'argo, looking sideways at Aeryn's reaction.

She doesn't have any, like he never said a word. She waits for Pilot's results in silence, as all the others.

- An agricultural society bombarded by heavy weaponry, says Pilot. No latent radiation… I would say… Smeeks.

- They've been wiped out five hundred cycles ago, says Aeryn, looking at Pilot's readings on the console in front of her.

- Desperate means for desperate people, says Zhaan calmly. They fanned out as far as they could to distance themselves from the illness, not knowing they were carrying it in their blood.

- Yes, of course, says Aeryn, smiling icily at her. You're old enough to have met some of them.

- That's true, says Zhaan, nodding.

She doesn't say if she met them, or is only old enough to have heard of their demise as it happened. Thäa itches to know, but this is not the right time or place to ask.

- I'll go on recon, says Aeryn, already heading to the door.

They look at her exiting the room, but no one speaks. When she's gone, D'argo slams his fist on the console, startling Pilot, who looks up from his readings.

- Can we help? asks Zhaan calmly.

Pilot's eyes blink a couple of times, then he shakes his head no.

- Well… he starts slowly. Helping the DRDs with the hydric system realignment wouldn't hurt, as well as keeping an eye on the atmospherics. I'm not sure they will hold until Moya's core is completely healed.

D'argo nods energetically.

- Chiana, take the hydric system, he orders roughly.

- What? asks Chiana, putting her hands on her hips and staring at him defiantly.

- You know it better than anyone else, he adds in a calmer voice, to explain his choice.

She nods, satisfied by his softening.

- Stark, would you help me? she asks graciously, to show D'argo she HAS good manners. Boring work gets done quicker with four hands.

Stark nods, follows her out, a microt after D'argo left. Zhaan stays behind with Thäa, and Rygel.

- I know, the Dominar says, lifting his hands. I'll join D'argo, before you hurl me out after him.

- I would never do that, says Zhaan, teasingly smiling at him.

- You've done worse, he mutters, passing in front of them.

- What about us, asks Thäa, both to Zhaan and Pilot.

Zhaan comes close to a navigation console. She looks in, reading the information Aeryn's prowler is sending continuously.

- Even if the planet was harmful to us, she says dreamily, it's not like we were forced to go down.

- If the ship gets sicker, wouldn't we be safer there? asks Thäa.

Zhaan hasn't heard Thäa's question. The readings are captivating her so much, the whole dome ceiling could fall on her head, and she wouldn't notice.

- Is that a prowler? asks Zhaan to Pilot.

- The remnants of one, Zhaan, says Pilot. Aeryn has landed near it. No life signs.

- There was a crash landing here, says Aeryn on her comm badge. I found the pilot still on his seat. Dead on impact. Can you run his data from Moya? I'm sending it now.

- Reading, says Pilot.

After a moment, he looks up to Zhaan.

- He was a Peacekeeper from the dead ship, he says. Lieutenant Caric Dreinac, Special Peacekeeper Unit, affected to prisoners' security transport.

Zhaan gasps. Her hands hold on so tight on the console, the knuckles become almost white. She looks down, mouth open, eyes tight shut. She doesn't breathe for more than fifteen microts then exhales slowly.

- You knew him? asks Thäa, tentatively.

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Zhaan nods, not yet able to speak.

- One dead, two to go, whispers Pilot, looking like he's talking to himself.

- I'm not seeking revenge, says Zhaan in a toneless voice.

- Aren't you glad he's dead? asks Pilot, surprised.

She looks up to him, then back down to the words on the console.

- I would have been, a long time ago, she says in a whisper. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'd rather spend the next few arns alone.

She exits the room quickly, leaving Thäa so surprised, she doesn't move. Then, as she ponders if she should follow her or not, she sees Pilot looking at her.

- Two to go, what does that mean? she asks.

- I'm sorry, Thäa, he says, looking ill at ease. I spoke out loud what should have been kept silent.

- If he was here, says Thäa, looking at him suspiciously, how come he was on the other ship? Chiana told me you came on board only four cycles ago.

- I never said I've met him, answers Pilot icily.

- How long has she been here? asks the Féerian, not wanting to let go of the subject just yet.

- I… I can't say… mumbles Pilot, looking even more troubled than before.

- Talk to me! You know I can find that out from the data files, Pilot! Spare me the work.

- No, says Pilot.

Thäa has seen Zhaan type on the console. She's not sure she really knows how to get it to work properly, but she's hoping her bluff could work better than her fingers. Pilot looks down on her for a while, then sighs as an electric charge zaps Thäa's fingers.

- OW! she yells, angrily. You didn't need to do THAT!

- Why don't you ask her, says Pilot, his eyes closing a bit, like he was trying to scare her away.

Thäa hold his stare without flinching.

- I'm not a child, Pilot, even if I look like one, she says icily. You could have shut the console down… I won't forget it.

She hides her sore fingers on her bosom as she slowly exits, her steps echoing in the empty room.

- Secrets, that's all we have left, says Pilot to her back. Everything else was taken away.

She turns back to face him.

- They have hope, too.

Pilot shrugs, and sighs, closing his eyes.

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When Thäa passes near Zhaan's room, she sees her standing up, immobile, looking at her bed. She's not meditating, not praying.

Thäa comes close to the bars, holding her breath, trying to decide if she should come in or not.

Zhaan had asked to be left alone. Was she talking solely to Pilot, or did it mean she didn't want anyone close at this moment? If it had been Sorann standing before her, she would have known what to do. But this strange woman is still a mystery, their relationship too young to take any chance. Thäa moves on to her own room.

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Aeryn looks in, then asks to enter. Thäa looks up from her sitting position on the bed and let her in. She was trying that meditation trick Zhaan had taught her. This time, it didn't do any good.

- The body I found, she says in a low voice, Zhaan knew him.

- I know, says Thäa, as she indicates a seat. I was there when Pilot told her.

Aeryn looks at the reclining chair and shakes her head no. She attempts a smile, trying very hard to be friendly. But the time isn't for any happy demonstration, and she changes her mind halfway.

- I've never met him, says Aeryn, coming closer to the bed, but I've met the likes of him. I'm sure you did too.

- He fled, let us starve, says Thäa showing no emotion. I've never met him either. Nonetheless, I won't cry on his grave. He got what he deserved.

- True, sighs Aeryn. I didn't come here for him, though.

- For Zhaan? asks Thäa, on the defensive. As I see it, you're not the best of friends.

- YOU are, says Aeryn, keeping her voice low. You should check up on her. This death, it the kind of things to bring back painful memories.

- She asked to be left alone, says Thäa, more courteous at the mention of Zhaan.

Aeryn nods. The lights on the walls dim a few times then go back to normal.

- Here, take this, says Aeryn, pulling out the torch from her belt. I can find my way in the dark. Go to her, she needs you.

Thäa looks at the torch, but she doesn't move. Aeryn looks on, frustrated at her immobility.

- Frell! I'm not lying, Thäa! she exclaims, throwing the torch on the bed, behind Thäa. That bitch knows exactly how to ruin my day, and she won't miss a chance to do it. I can't go to her! You know that! She'll rip me to pieces before I can put in a word!

- So, you want ME to get the wrath in your place, asks Thäa, smiling maliciously.

- She's crying her eyes out, Thäa, says Aeryn, breathing deeply to keep her anger under control. She's all alone in that cell, like she was for so many cycles.

- I'll think about it, Aeryn, says Thäa, making efforts to be polite.

- Dren, says Aeryn between clenched teeth. For once, I try to be helpful, to be… compassionate, and looks where it gets me!

- Thanks for letting me know, says Thäa, picking up the torch.

As soon as Aeryn has gone out, Thäa goes to the door and looks out, making sure the Sebacean doesn't see her, then she runs to Zhaan's room, torch in hand. With those brand new leather boots Stark had made her, she can't be silent as before, but she won't creep in like a thief. The Delvian has heard her steps, and looks back at the door. Seeing Thäa looking in, she nods a silent agreement.

- I was worried, says Thäa, coming closer very slowly.

- I won't hurt you, whispers Zhaan, with downcast eyes, but not hiding her glistening cheeks from Thäa's inquisitive eyes.

The lights dim again.

- I manage to find a torch, says Thäa, showing it in plain view. I've been in trouble too many times, I didn't want to get lost and ask for help again.

Zhaan lets her put her arms around her waist, like she did so many times since she came on board. Thäa looks up. In the faltering light, she sees faint changes in the Delvian eyes, a yellow hue slowly receding. All her muscles tighten at that sight, but she holds on. When the light comes back to normal, Zhaan's eyes are their usual blue.

- Aeryn's torch, she whispers, pulling Thäa closer to her. She didn't dare come in.

- I didn't either, admits Thäa, feeling shameful at her cowardice.

Zhaan pulls her at arms length. Thäa senses her silent reproach, her sadness, some mixed feelings she couldn't quite understand and she pesters about this telepathy she should have but is lacking; it would be so helpful now. Zhaan's features soften just before the light goes out completely.

- I love you, whispers Zhaan. I wish you would understand how much.

- I do, says Thäa quickly as she feels fingers going tenderly through her hair, the caress lingering near her face. You wanted privacy. I couldn't deny you that.

- I was talking to Pilot, says the Delvian.

Thäa's tentative caress lands on a wet cheek. Zhaan takes the hand and kisses it. The light comes back with a soft hum. Thäa blinks. Zhaan is smiling to her, wiping her tears with the back of one ringed hand.

- The past is behind me, she says. Let's make our own future.

A blast of cold air comes from the corridor and fans out Thäa long mane. Both look in that direction in surprise. The room gets colder by the microt.

Zhaan taps on her comm badge.

- Pilot? What's the matter with the atmospherics?

She gets no answer.

- D'argo?… Chiana?… Stark?… Rygel?… … … Aeryn?

The comm stays silent at every name.

- Is it my imagination or Moya is trying to keep us apart? asks Thäa, sighing heavily.

- Moya is sick, answers Zhaan. She keeps shutting down some of her systems while she's trying to heal the others. It's a natural process for a Leviathan.

- I hope she'll let us keep some air... and warmth.

- I'll be satisfied with air, retorts Zhaan almost playfully. We can warm ourselves some other way.

Thäa sighs again, pleased by this answer.

- I thought you would have to go to Pilot's den.

As Zhaan is shaking her head no, the soft hum of Rygel's throne sled makes them turn their head to the door once again.

- Pilot asks us to go to a transport pod immediately, he snaps angrily. Take everything you need for a few days. He has no idea how long he can keep our quarters breathable.

- Who's taking care of bringing food? asks Zhaan, her sarcasm clearly audible.

- Chiana has made a whole pot of Tritian stew, enough for a weeken, or so she says, he retorts.

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Zhaan frowns at him.

- She knows how I hate that overcooked dren, he mutters as he floats away.

Zhaan looks worried as she takes a few changes of clothes and her medicine box, and moves out after Thäa. They go to her room, take a few articles and leave quickly, not forgetting the torch Thäa brought along. She follows Zhaan to the transport pod, in silence, but before they go in, she stops her.

- What's the matter? she asks. You said yourself Moya has to shut down some systems.

- I was only wondering where Chiana got an old Tritian recipe, says Zhaan, trying to sound reassuring.

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The smell of cooking is permeating the whole little ship. Chiana is slowly stirring a big pot over the heating grid, at the center of the passenger's quarters. Doors to the bunks are open, D'argo and Stark having chosen their own as they came in. Chiana looks to the new arrivals.

- Aeryn went to get herself a suit, she explains nervously. You know… in case she has to get out before the air is back. I don't know why we're staying here. We might as well go down to the planet to breathe some fresh air... for a change.

- Moya might need us, states Zhaan.

- Or starburst out of here, stranding us down there, says Chiana with a nervous laugh.

The lights outside the transport pod go out completely just as Aeryn gets in.

- Made it... she sighs with a victorious smile.

She lets the black suit fall from her hands and seals them in. The loud clunking sound from the latch startles Thäa, which laughs nervously.

- We'll be safe in here, says Aeryn, smiling at the Féerian.

She spoke softly but she's so confident about it, her words reassure Chiana too, who stops stirring her pot and comes closer to Thäa.

- I'd like to go down on the planet, she says again, for Aeryn's benefit. When D'argo went to see Pilot in his den, he said Moya knew what she was doing.

Zhaan had gone to command and looks at the controls.

- Yes, she says loud enough so they can hear her from the 'kitchen' area. You can say Moya had a nervous breakdown. The particles are helping her focus on her well being. It shouldn't take long.

- A few arns, says Aeryn as loudly. Moya is using all her DRDs for the hydric system. I had to push some away to get to the suit.

- Enjoy and relax, mumbles Chiana, in the doorway between the two rooms.

Thäa is right behind her, her skin rippling as a gloved black hand caresses her arm. She looks at Zhaan, then at Chiana who doesn't seem to notice what she's doing.

A loud bang and the shock it produces on the exterior hull of the pod throws them all on the floor. Zhaan pesters about it, Chiana swears, and Thäa starts to cry, sitting up but not standing up like the others.

- Are you hurt? asks Zhaan, getting to her in three long quick strides.

- She's here, sniffles the Féerian, looking more scared than hurt. She won't let us leave. Not with me on board.

Chiana runs to the commands and gasps.

- Aeryn! she yells. We're stuck here!

The men gather around the console, pushing Chiana out of the way. Aeryn, coming after them, roughly pushes Rygel away to get closer. They all look at the readings, the propulsion system off line, the navigation unresponsive.

- It's better that way, says D'argo. Moya might have fled while we were away. We don't know how she's really feeling.

Zhaan has not moved from Thäa's side. She helps her to her feet, keeping an arm around her to steady her as the Féerian shakes like a leaf.

- She came in, she whispers to the Delvian. I can feel her, stronger than ever.

- We already had one completely farhbot, mumbles Rygel, looking at Stark who seems strangely calm for once.

The Banik senses his gaze and looks back at him. In silence, he crosses the room to stand in front of the Hynerian. He bends down to be at his height as he speaks.

- The one… she's talking about… he says very slowly. You don't know who she is, do you? I can't feel her. You know what this means? I… can't… feel… her.

Rygel looks stunned. He drives his throne sled backward a little.

- She's… alive, he whispers in a breath.

- Nonsense, roars D'argo. No one can board us without our knowledge. Moya would have detected her ship. Pilot would have told us.

He explains much more than the others need, because he's talking directly to Thäa, and he doesn't know how much she understand about Leviathans. At this moment, Pilot comms in, and everyone looks at him, almost expecting him to announce they have an unexpected guest. He looks at the faces staring at him and fidgets with his controls.

- I'm sorry about the cable, he finally says. A DRD cut the wrong end and it fell on you. I'm repairing it as fast as I can.

- How's Moya? asks Zhaan.

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- Much better, answers Pilot. The hydric system is back to normal, and I'll have the atmospherics ready in about two arns.

- Are the lights repaired? ask Rygel, munching on a cracker he took out from his robe, to calm both hunger and nerves.

- Lights? asks Pilot. There's no problem with the lights.

They all look at each other, suspicious about his affirmation, not sure if they should point it out to him.

- Have you found her? asks Thäa in her clear child-like voice.

- Found whom? asks Pilot.

- Pa'u Sola Leenan, says Thäa, coming closer to the clamshell.

- There's no one else on board, says Pilot, looking at his controls to check.

Thäa nods and leans back on Zhaan's body.

- She's the one who gave the recipe to Chiana, she whispers to her lover. She put the lights out, and tampered with the atmospherics to bring us here. Then she's found a way to take you out one by one, to have me all to herself.

Zhaan wants to deny it all, but she still wonders about the recipe. Chiana, who feels the accusing blue eyes on her, opens her mouth to speak, but she has no explanation.

- Have you met any Tritian in your life? asks Stark, going to stand, accusing, in front of her.

- What do they look like? she asks back, smiling sheepishly.

- A red skin, golden eye, rusty gold hair, enumerates Stark, his eye shining. They look a bit like Delvians, but with different colours.

Chiana shakes her head no.

- I'm not sleeping with everyone I meet, she says, on the defensive. I talked to many, exchange information… and recipes. You know I like to cook… always had that in me.

- You're accusing her of what? asks D'argo, looking at Thäa.

- I'm not accusing anyone, the Féerian retorts angrily. I'm only saying we have been pushed in some directions, to act some ways, because it helps HER.

- They were all DEAD! he growls. Put that into your head, little girl. When I took you from that decomposing ship, there were only corpses around you.

- Was she in the cell in front of me? she asks as angrily as before, pushing away Zhaan's comforting arm.

He thinks about it, looks at Aeryn who shrugs, then back at Thäa.

- Corpses are thrown into space, says Zhaan, coming to his help. Only those who were starving died in their cells.

- So, if she wasn't in her cell, says Thäa, her name should be listed among the dead. Pilot, can you find her name on that list?

- Sola… Leenan… says Pilot, looking into his data files.

It takes much longer than it should have, and Zhaan feels her heart sink. She understands that Pilot is stalling her, not wanting to feed the Féerian's craze about her old nemesis, but unable to find a way out, unless he lies. He hates doing that. Lies have a way to come back and haunt you.

- Anyway, says Zhaan, coming to his own rescue, she can't live without air, and there's none except in Pilot's den.

- Could she be hiding there? asks Stark in muted tones.

- Only one way to find out, says Aeryn, going back to the entrance of the pod.

- No, don't go! Zhaan shouts.

She runs after her, and forcefully takes the suit out of Aeryn grasp. Thäa comes in, then all the others.

Zhaan explains there's a chance Leenan could use her Pa'u's knowledge to blend in her surroundings, or suggest she's not there. If that were the case, no one would see her.

- What about the DRDs? asks Aeryn. They are mostly mechanical.

- True, their findings go through Pilot, or to the console, explains Zhaan. But the eyes looking at the data would see what she wants us to see, not necessarily the truth.

- Mind control, I hate that, growls D'argo. There's surely a way to defeat that bitch. Zhaan, what do you suggest?

- She won't get caught alive, says Thäa, reading his mind, so to speak.

- That's what I'm afraid of, sighs Zhaan.

All eyes stare at her. The silence grows.

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- Zhaan, says Stark, coming to stand before her. We can do it... together.

Zhaan caresses his cheek, smiling sadly.

- She is beyond redemption, she whispers. I can't ask you to participate in taking a life.

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The Banik takes her hands in his and puts them on his heart.

- I would do so much more for you both, he whispers back.

Zhaan seems hurt by this comment and looks down.

- What if she's the one asking this through you? asks Thäa, still undecided. Maybe that's the way she could hurt you both.

Zhaan raises her head to look at Thäa, then at Stark. He's so calm, so sure of himself, she wonders if this madwoman manipulates him.

- I am Stykera, he answers, looking at the girl.

Zhaan nods, knowing how wrong she was to doubt him.

- What's a Stykera? asks Thäa gently.

- This body is only a molecular creation, which enables me to live in your realm, Thäa, he answers, touching his mask. My true, incorporeal self can't be tampered with by mere thoughts, even from a Pa'u.

- Can't you kill her on your own, then? asks Thäa, caring about Zhaan's reluctance.

- This body can't withstand the space void Moya has created throughout her entire body, he explains calmly. To enter Pilot's access corridor and get to his den, I would need more than a spacesuit. She would see me come, from his controls, and block every door on my way. It could take days to reach her. Meanwhile, she's sure to find a way to have me suffocate.

- Together, we could do it from here, says Zhaan.

- COULD?! exclaims Aeryn, sarcasm filling her voice. But Zhaan doesn't want to kill again, does she? Poor little blue girl, becoming so nice and sweet, she can't get rid of the bitch that tortured her own lover!

Zhaan glowers, grinding her teeth.

- What does your naked blue Goddess wants, Zhaan? asks Aeryn more angrily. To protect a frelling bitch that will hurt everyone around her for the rest of her natural life, or bring peace to one little girl who never hurt anyone?

- Stop it, Aeryn, says D'argo in a muted tone.

- What? You don't know they're lovers? asks Aeryn, turning to him. It doesn't take a Vorcarian's nose to know those two are way beyond holding hands! They stink of each other!

- That's enough, says Chiana forcefully. You're the only frigid woman here, Aeryn! Your boring sex life is your own business, but don't you dare tell us what to do!

Aeryn makes fists, but everyone is looking at her. She prefers to leave the room in a sudden show of anger. She storms out to the Control room. D'argo turns to her, then decides to sit on one of the benches places around the room, far from the multicoloured girl and her strange ideas.

- Leenan is doing this, Thäa whispers to herself. She's safe as long as we fight among each other.

- Stark? asks Pilot's from the clamshell in the other room.

- I'll stall him, says Rygel, a malicious smile on his lips.

- You know what that means? says Stark, his voice heavy with innuendos.

- I want to do it, says Thäa, coming so close she's almost between Zhaan and Stark.

She covers their hands with her small ones.

- I know about Unity, she says to Stark's benefit. I also know it can be done with multiple partners. It will make us stronger, won't it?

- Can you kill? asks Stark in a bland voice. I'm not talking about scaring her out of your life for a while. Nothing short of death will stop her.

- Quick or slow? asks Thäa, grinding her teeth. I would prefer slow, but it's not safe, isn't it?

- Do it carefully, so she won't see what's coming, says Stark, a glowing smile on his lips.

- Can I help? asks Chiana, who has heard the Féerian's warning.

Both Stark and Zhaan shake their head no. She looks at D'argo, but he won't help one way or the other.

- I'm the only one left out, she says, pouting.

Zhaan thinks it over, and stares at Chiana to evaluate her determination.

- Four would be stronger than three, she finally says, as Chiana's gaze hasn't faltered.

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Chiana almost jumps to her place, between Stark and Thäa, the closest to her. Stark motions her to put her hands over Thäa. She does so.

- Thäa will be the only one Leenan sees, explains Zhaan. Thäa, you'll stand before her, in a blue void. You won't know where you are, and won't be able to see us. But we'll be there, to support you and fuel your anger. I'll send you through the void, and Stark will protect all of us while your mind has left your body.

- Anger, yes, mutters Chiana, very seriously. I have sakmars of it ready for you. Should Thäa bring… I don't know… a weapon?

She bites her lip, knowing in advance her question was irrelevant. You can't bring anything with your mind. She wonders if Thäa would appear to the Delvian naked, but she pushes this thought away, focusing on all of those who did her wrong in her life, to build up this anger she will soon need.

- Ready when you are, says Stark, so calmly, all three women look at him.

- Thäa, our two spirits will pass into each other, until we inhabit a single consciousness, says Zhaan in a very soft voice.

Thäa lifts her head to look into Zhaan's very shiny blue eyes. The Delvian lowers hers, so both foreheads touch lightly.

- Move into me, she whispers, closing her eyes.

Thäa looks around, seeing nothing in the blue mist. Then, from the corner of her eye, she notices a faint light on her right. She pushes it away from her mind, not wanting Pa'u Sola Leenan to find out she's not truly alone. She walks on this soft cloud, feeling it yielding under her bare feet. She looks down and sees her whole body rippling with subdued colours. Her nakedness gives her an idea. She's smiling when a face comes out of the mist, far away, red eyes staring at her.

- I told you we would meet again, says the icy voice she recognises too well.

- Yes, you did, says Thäa, holding up to the murderous gaze. I never said you weren't true to your word.

She hasn't stop advancing in the mist, coming nearer to the blue disembodied face. If the Delvian thought it would scare her, she was wrong. Thäa's gait hasn't faltered. She stops at about an arm's length from the face.

- How's your sanity holding up? asks Leenan, sarcastically. Not as mad as a Banik yet?

- Madness has its advantages, says Thäa crossing her arms, her hands on her shoulders. I can get whatever I want and nobody asks why.

- The Delvian, snickers Leenan. She's your next victim, or is she already under your control?

- She's soooo GOOOD to me, says Thäa, caressing the outside of her arms with her open palms. You have no idea how soft her skin is, how warm and inviting. And her scent… I have to tell you, it's so enticing, especially when she's aroused. A yielding body, so eager to reach pleasure, but able to wait it out, to savour each little sensation to its fullest. She gives as much as she gets… even more.

- It's only sex, spits the mad Delvian, her red eyes glowing with rage.

Thäa's hands, gone back up to her shoulders, move down to her heaving breasts, cupping them lightly, them kneading them with insistence, as she talks.

- No, whispers Thäa, amorously, it's beyond sex. I can see it in her eyes, feel it in her limbs, and taste it on her skin. I've seen her glow with light, shake with so much desire I could feel it coursing through me as she reaches heights I never thought possible. She's all I ever wanted, all I need and desire, she's everything to me.

- Then, destroying her will be so much more rewarding, won't it? asks Leenan icily.

- You could have known how she feels when she's with me, says Thäa so dreamily one might think she doesn't understand in what danger she's getting herself into. With your great knowledge and powers, you could have learned that I was born to give pleasure.

- Pleasure? asks Leenan, a hand showing through the mist. I'll give you all the pleasure I seek.

The hand curls into a claw. Thäa looks at it, not flinching.

- Pain won't take it away, Pa'u Leenan, she says in an even voice. My own powers come from within and can't be stolen. You took so little from me, I can give so much more! Don't you want to know the joys I can bring?

She feels a slight pang between her breasts, a gift from the claw-like hand, as her own hands move down to her crotch.

- I am pleasure incarnated, says Thäa in a stronger voice. Nothing you say can change me. Nothing you do can stop me. I am Féebanchee!

She said the last words with clenched teeth, biting into them with such rage, the claw-hand falters a microt. That's all Thäa wanted to see.

Quick as the Delvian could move, she doesn't see the small hand reaching out. The little multicoloured claw-like hand grabs this cold murderous heart, squeezing it with all her might.

- You don't need a heart, whispers Thäa, yanking her hand away. You don't need a LIFE!

Screaming the last word, she doesn't hear it, for the red-eyed Delvian is screaming louder than her. She wills this blue bitch into death, remembering all that clawing she suffered from those hands, those eyes, that unfeeling heart. The light, which has been her sole companion when she entered the blue haze, becomes brighter as the mad Delvian writhes in agony. The mist lightens. She sees a nude blue body clenching her breasts, feeling that hole oozing white blood.

Thäa's hand does that claw-like thing again, like she has seen so many times, on the other ship. The Delvian look up, gaping mouth trying to make out some words. The bloodied rainbow hand goes to her head.

- Take all those nightmares with you, whispers Thäa icily. Feel them ripping through your own head, clawing their way in, endlessly gnawing at your brain. Take them back. They're yours.

With one final howl, the naked blue body falls down from view. The mist dissipates completely. At her feet, Thäa sees… nothing but the bare floor of the transport pod.

- You're back, says Rygel, smiling at the four of them. I thought it would take longer.

He has a bowl of Tritian stew in his lap and some of it smeared down his chest. Holding his spoon, he points to the steaming pot.

- Didn't want it to get spoiled, he says taking another spoonful, then hovers away.

Thäa looks at her three partners in crime. They've unlocked their hands as Rygel was talking but none of them moved from his or her place.

- Thank the Goddess, you're safe, whispers Zhaan, caressing her cheek.

- Whose idea was it to use sex as a weapon? asks Thäa, looking down at her clothes to be sure they're back on her.

Chiana laughs heartily, nervously.

- I swear, I wasn't thinking about anything like this, she says.

- You saw it? asks Thäa.

Chiana and Zhaan nod. Stark looks so ill at ease, he doesn't have to. D'argo, who hasn't moved from his bench, stands up and goes to the stew pot.

- If you ask me, he says turning his back on them, I saw nothing but the four of you clasping hands and touching heads.

Aeryn comes back from the command room. She looks at each of them in turn, then goes to the pot to pour herself a big bowl of stew.

- Pilot says everything is back to normal, she says, looking around to find a spoon. We'll have air in half an arn, enough time to grab a bite before we get out of here.

Zhaan runs to command.

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- Pilot, have you found a body anywhere? asks Zhaan frantically.

- Who is she? asks Pilot, his big round eyes even bigger from surprise. Of course I found her… dead if I might add.

- It's a long story, Pilot, she sighs in relief. Can you find her in the dead ship's log?

- Her name is Sola Leenan, a sixteenth level Pa'u, he says after only a few microts. She was caught stealing explosives on Tritia, and brought in with a female Tritian, the one Aeryn found on the planet below.

- Tritian? Female? asks Zhaan, out of breath.

- Yes, says Pilot, the dead body from the prowler. I thought I had told you about her. I guess she didn't really know how to manage a landing.

- Is there a problem? asks Aeryn from the doorway.

- Who did you found down there? asks Zhaan, suspicion making her voice harder than she meant it to be.

- One of those frelling red bitches who invented that dren recipe, she says pointing to her bowl. Rygel was right, it's definitively overcooked.

- Who made that? asks Chiana. I thought I was the one cooking for all of us!

- We're back to normal, says Stark, taking his own bowl farther from the grasping attempts of a small Hynerian hand.

- Do you know what normal feels like when it hits you? mumbles Rygel, with his mouth full.

- Let's get down to the planet! exclaims Chiana. I want fresh fruit, maybe fish. D'argo, you're the best fisherman we're got around, aren't you?

He slowly nods as he gulps the liquid at the bottom of his bowl.

- I don't understand, says Rygel, getting a second helping, where the frell was that bitch, on the planet below or here?

- She was here all along, says Zhaan, sounding tired. She probably hitched a ride when you were transferring the ship's cargo.

- I've checked all crates and boxes, says D'argo. None was empty.

- She walked in, and you didn't see her, says Chiana. She was playing with our minds, don't you get it?

- Don't remind me, growls D'argo. She might have picked a better recipe, though.

- I thought the pot was full! exclaims Chiana. Rygel, you didn't gulp all that down while we had our back turned, did you?

- It was only half full to begin with, the Dominar says, pompously. You cooked it too much.

- No, Leenan had to eat too, says Zhaan, politely refusing a second bowl from Stark's hands. She gave Chiana the recipe because that's what she wanted to eat…

- …a mistake on her part, cuts in Thäa. That's what raised your suspicions, wasn't it, Zhaan?

- Maybe if it had been her only mistake, says Zhaan dreamily, I wouldn't have noticed it so much. Dreinac was the first blunder, not the stew.

- The man from your past? asks Thäa. Yes, that was too much of a coincidence.

- I wasn't affected, says Aeryn, disgustingly picking up a white hair from her bowl and throwing it away.

Zhaan has a faint smile but says nothing. She goes back to the counter to put down her bowl. When she comes back to sit down near Thäa, the Féerian takes her hand.

- Was it your idea to use sex as a weapon? she asks in a subdued tone of voice.

- She would have fueled her own rage with yours, answers Zhaan in the same hush tone. You had to take it slow, take her off guard, some way or the other.

- It was you, breathes Thäa, stunned.

- Not completely, says Zhaan, glancing at Chiana. In Unity, all minds become one, no matter how many there are. It was… a group thought.

- Not from Stark, says Thäa, suppressing a giggle. By the look on his face, I would say he's still a virgin.

Zhaan looses her smile.

- You almost acknowledged his presence in your mind, she says, trying not to sound too critical. I had to step in sooner than I expected. Yes, the sex thoughts were mostly mine.

- That's how you feel about me? asks Thäa, almost dropping her bowl, which she had forgotten.

- It's more than that, admits Zhaan. What I told her through you came from necessity. I had to capture her attention until you were ready to strike.

Zhaan takes the small free hand in hers.

- What I truly feel for you wasn't her to know.

- Pilot said you like to keep secrets, teases Thäa.

Aeryn is scraping the bottom of the cooking pot, for Rygel's benefit, which whined for eighty microts about his arms being too short and his appetite too great to let any food go to waste. As soon as she hears Pilot telling them the air has been restored, she gives the long spoon to Rygel, and puts on her space suit.

- Is it necessary? asks Chiana, trying to sound cheerful.

- Not taking any more chances, mumbles Aeryn as she closes the inner door behind her.

It only takes a few microts before she comes back in, leaving the door wide open.

- I would like to go over the hydric systems one more time, she says looking at D'argo.

He nods, leaving with her.

- Go on, says Rygel, licking his spoon as he hovers over the pot. I know the way out.

Chiana asks Thäa to help her sort out everything that was left inside the transport pod, take it out and put it back in its rightful place. D'argo's and Aeryn's stuff have to be moved back too, in case they don't have time to get down to the planet.

- I'll get rid of the body, whispers Stark as he comes close to Zhaan.

- I'm coming with you.

He lifts a hand to stop her, but see the resolve in her eyes. She's not putting him down, making him feel worthless. No. She wants to be there for a last prayer as he wraps her body into a makeshift shroud.

They walk in silence, Stark letting Zhaan take the lead, go to her room to take a few articles, waiting for her in the corridor, then walking behind her again, down to Pilot's den. Zhaan puts on her stole before she stands close to the naked body. She prays in silence, under the scrutiny of Pilot and Stark. Then, as she joins her hands again to close the prayer, and opens her eyes, she sees a DRD coming to them, a long white sheet stuck between its little claws.

- That's very thoughtful of you, Pilot, she says, smiling sadly.

Stark takes the sheet from the DRD and straightens it on the floor. He then takes the dead Delvian in his arms and puts her on the sheet, slowly hiding her from view by closing each corner, one at the time.

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- Can we bury her on the planet? asks Zhaan, looking at Pilot.

- I thought we would eject her from space, once we cleared the gravity.

Zhaan looks sadden.

- That's how it's done, Zhaan, says Stark, still crouching low before the now completely wrapped body. We die in space, we stay in space.

- Delvians are meant to get back to the earth, says Zhaan. Is this how I would end?

Stark looks confused.

- What do you mean? he asks, getting up.

- If I die on Moya, will I be thrown into space?

This time, both Pilot and Stark look at her, stunned.

- It's not the same, answers Pilot. You're part of the crew, Zhaan. We wouldn't do that to… family.

- She was our enemy, Zhaan, says Stark, touching her arm ever so lightly. She came here to murder us and you want us to treat her like one of us?

Zhaan bends down and pulls the sheet off the Delvian's face. The corpse's eyes are still open. Stark wasn't able to shut them down. The glassy red gaze stares into nothingness, but Zhaan sees more than that. She sees herself, not so long ago, so filled with the same murderous rage.

Stark remembers that dark core he saw during Unity, the deep repressed anger his beloved Delvian hid so carefully from Thäa. Yes, Zhaan could have ended up just like Leenan, but that was cycles ago. The Zhaan he met and grew to love isn't the same person.

- Treat her like you would…

- No, says Stark, deliberately putting a finger across Zhaan's lips, something he never dared to do before. She's not… you. She's Thäa's worst nightmare, as much different from you as Moya is from me. I will take her down on the planet, in a sealed container. I will put it personally on grass, or bare earth, whichever you wish, but no one here will dig her a grave.

- I'll do it, then.

Pilot clears his throat. They turn their head to look at him.

- I have a few DRDs that have the capacity to dig through soft earth, and the necessary equipment to bury a body. Moya has agreed to your wish, Zhaan. If you could simply put the body in the transport pod, everything will be done according to Delvian traditions.

- Thank you, Pilot. Thank you, Moya.

Zhaan said the last one looking up to the living being surrounding her.

- Moya wants to know… starts Pilot, already giving his instructions on his console. Do you want the Tritian buried with her, or in a separate grave?

- Whichever she feels would be less trouble, answers Zhaan. Tritians don't care much about the afterlife.

Zhaan bends down to pull back the sheet over the Delvian's face.

- I wish Thäa hadn't been involved, she sighs, straightening up.

- She needed a conclusion, says Stark as the DRD starts taking laser-controlled measurements of the body's length, width and height.

- I hope she doesn't think she killed Leenan, says Zhaan, turning away with one last blessing to the corpse.

Stark stops her with the tip on his hand on her sleeve, saying:

- That's what I saw.

Zhaan takes his hand off quickly, almost angrily.

- You're mistaken, she says.

- Your thoughts guided her hand, corrects Stark, his hand touching her again, but it was Thäa's hand who ripped the woman's heart out, not yours.

- That didn't kill her! exclaims Zhaan, throwing Stark's hand away, like she did his words.

She storms out of the room, leaving Pilot and Stark wondering what she really meant. Zhaan goes directly to Thäa's room, but the Féerian isn't there. She checks all the places the young girl uses to kill time but can't find her. Distracted by a beeping DRD, she follows him to Command, but finds Chiana instead.

- Moya isn't quite ready to let us leave, sighs the Nebari. Look.

Zhaan peeks at the fluctuations of the readings on the console. She should concentrate on them, find out what they mean, but her mind is elsewhere.

- Who killed Leenan? asks Zhaan, still looking down at the dials.

- Thäa, answers Chiana without the slightest hesitation.

Zhaan moves away, stopping at the big table, looking down, and trying to find on its shiny surface the answer she needs. Rygel floats by as Chiana comes to her side.

- Burying that bitch, mumbles the Hynerian. She didn't deserve that much.

Neither of the women acknowledges his words.

- If it wasn't her hand, who did it… you? asks Chiana, still thinking about what Zhaan said earlier.

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Zhaan nods, still looking at the table.

- You used Thäa's hand so that woman wouldn't know you were there, is that it? Chiana asks, looking sideways at Zhaan.

- As long Leenan thought she was alone with her, Thäa was relatively safe, explains Zhaan. I couldn't risk having Leenan taking her hostage.

- Yes, a sixteenth level was she? Much more than you?

Zhaan nods slightly.

- For once, your strategy was right, says Rygel.

At last, both women look at him.

- I give it when it's due, he says, patronising. Using her own victim to hide your inadequacy to challenge her powers might seem coward to some. But in a war, there should be no sentimentality.

- I wouldn't have put it in those words, says Zhaan, hurt.

- NO, of course not, he says, softly laughing. You spared the girl's feelings, and it's noble of you. However, you put a great deal of trust in such a naive mind.

- Where are you getting at? asks Chiana, ready to fight for Thäa's honour.

- I wish any of my wifes had seen me that way, he mumbles, floating away.

Chiana looks at him exiting the Control room, then laughs heartily.

- That frelling nam-toad is jealous, she snickers.

Zhaan isn't laughing, and Chiana's good humour abates fast. She pats the blue hand, trying to give her comfort.

- Thäa has to know she's not the one who took a life, Zhaan says.

She finally finds her lover arguing with Aeryn. The tension is palpable, even if they both shut up as soon as she enters the cargo bay. Zhaan goes to Thäa, who takes her hand, trying to smile and show everything is alright.

- What is this about? asks Zhaan, concerned.

- I can't find her torch, whispers Thäa. She's saying I've done it on purpose, that I'm useless.

Aeryn looks up from the crate she's fumbling into.

- The problem is, she says, breathing hard to control her temper, she can't take responsibilities. The torch can be replaced, but what if it had been a weapon? Eventually, she'll have to fight too.

- She's not like us, I concede that, Zhaan says to Aeryn very calmly. Give her a chance to learn how to fight. With time, she might end us a murderess like you and me.

Aeryn's anger has dissipated as she's stunned by Zhaan's words. She looks at them both exiting the cargo bay, the torch forgotten, even the reason why she was so angry gone from her mind.

Thäa stays silent as she walks alongside Zhaan back to the living quarters. Then, as they come up to her own room, she doesn't open the door but turns to face her lover.

- I didn't kill? she asks, surprised.

- You inflicted pain by suggesting you were ripping her heart out, says Zhaan in her warm voice. It wouldn't have killed her. I took control afterwards.

- Hurting her like she did to me, says Thäa dreamily. I wouldn't have known how to do that.

Zhaan nods, thanking the Goddess Thäa hasn't run away screaming. The Féerian opens her door.

- Would you spend the night with me? asks Thäa.

- I…

Zhaan looks down on her stole. This is a religious vestment. It can't be thrown on a chair like a vulgar scarf.

- In your room, then? asks Thäa, hopeful.

Zhaan smiles and nods her consent.

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When they have reached Zhaan's room, the closest from the cargo bay on tier six, Thäa sits on the bed, silent. Zhaan goes to her altar and takes her stole off whispering a prayer to her Goddess. She carefully folds the religious vestment and puts it in an ornate box. Then, she turns back to Thäa, her hands still joined in prayer.

- Was Aeryn trying to get me into some kind of fight? asks Thäa.

- She probably was, sighs Zhaan.

- Why?

- We are fugitives. She wanted to evaluate how much she can trust you when we'll come under fire.

The girl shrugs.

- Why can't she start by teaching me?

- I don't think it crossed her mind, says Zhaan, sitting near her. She was born among soldiers. She has known nothing else.

- But you're a Pa'u and you learned to fight! exclaims Thäa. Why can she think I'd do the same?

- I suppose I could teach you myself.

Moya's lights dim. It's time to go to bed. Thäa stands up to take her dress off.

- Maybe you could teach me that mind trick too, she says tentatively.

She's turning her back to Zhaan, not to hide her nakedness from her but to make sure there isn't anyone peeking in on them.

- No, says Zhaan.

- Please, says Thäa, turning around to face her.

- It's not a trick, says Zhaan, pulling the sheet from the bed so Thäa can slide right in.

- I know… I don't know how you call it, but you could teach it to me, couldn't you?

- I'm sorry, Thäa. You have no telepathic ability to start with.

Thäa nods, defeated.

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Daytime on the ship. Moya is still circling around the planet, as the DRDs and the crew do the last repairs. Once all of the systems have been restored, and Pilot has confirmed Moya's good health, the crew gather all they need for a short sojourn on the planet, then leave.

After they built a small camp, in a grassy hillside, D'argo takes Aeryn on a fishing trip, on the bank of a slow moving river. Rygel and Stark, after gathering fruits and nuts, sit down to a game of cards, both knowing the other will eventually cheat.

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- How can you be so much in love with her? asks Chiana, as she sits down under a big knotted tree, near the river. You don't know anything about her!

- I know enough, answers Thäa as she looks on to Zhaan who has left them to gather some herbs for her medicines.

Chiana pulls on Thäa's tunic, so the Féerian has to sit down, and loose sight of her lover.

- How old is she? asks Chiana, lightly. Where was she born? Why isn't she telling us anything about her past?

- I don't need to know these things, answers Thäa, putting down the little box which has never left her side since she came down from the transport pod.

- Aren't you curious, or do you prefer to stay in the dark, so you won't have to tell your own story?

- I don't have any secrets, laughs Thäa. I've told her everything... from the time I was barely walking to the moment you found me. Well, I might have missed a thing or two. I don't remember every microt on the other ship.

- I didn't think you were up to that mind trick, says Chiana in a low voice. I mean, you barely know the gal. She could have messed up your mind like the first one, maybe not on purpose, but you never know.

- She could have left me to die, says Thäa, still trying to see the blue and gold silhouette from afar. I have to admit, I don't know much about Delvians. They never came to my home world, and we're not traveling through the stars on our own.

- What you told that frelling bitch, is this how you see Zhaan? Really?

- NO, exclaims Thäa, looking down, blushing. I had that night on my mind, you know, the night with the lamp. I couldn't think of anything else but what we did, the three of us. I think Zhaan imposed that memory to me, to shield me from Leenan's own destructive thoughts.

As she spoke, she kept caressing the little brown box she carried with her all day long. For a moment, Thäa looks at the skies, changing from day blue to smoky grey night, and her hand keeps stroking the cover of the box. Chiana is so fascinated by that small hand on the wood, she forgets what she was about to say.

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Zhaan comes back to them, her golden coat filled with the sweet scents of all the foliage she stuffed the pockets with. She's out of breath, like she had run a great distance, but both girls know she's been walking very slowly the whole day.

- I can't go on, Zhaan says, a shy smile on her lips. I've lost the ability… to control…

She looks at Chiana, then at Thäa.

- Have you tried it? How many did you bring?

- I brought four, no need for more, says Thäa playfully. I've told Aeryn it was a Féerian tradition, to calm nerves.

- She's wearing it, right now? breathes Zhaan, surprised.

- I wish I could see her face right now, admits Thäa, with a little nervous laugh.

- What about D'argo's face?

- They're fishing! exclaims Thäa. As long as she's not moving at all, it won't have any effect on her. You told me so yourself.

- D'argo made some craft, says Chiana, only a few planks tied with strings, but it can float.

- By the Goddess, whispers Zhaan. She'll want to kill us both.

- NO… me, says Thäa. I'm the one who told her how to put it. If I hadn't lied…

- I'm the one telling you what it was, breathes Zhaan, more amused than scared.

- A Delvian thing? asks Chiana, curious. What does it do?

- It's a way to bring pleasure while doing boring chores, explains Zhaan, leaning on a low tree branch.

- Pull your pants down, I'll show you, says Thäa laughing.

She opens the little box she's been stroking all day long and reveals what looks like two brown roots. Under closer inspection, they aren't that natural, being meticulously carved as a thin cradle with a big bump on the inside of the curve.

- A baby in a boat, says Chiana, giggling.

She looks at it closely, turning it in her gloved hands. The bump is more of an egg, on a thin rubbery foot, closer to the smooth end of the inner curve. The other end is covered with the same rubbery substance as the foot of the egg, textured like small waves running lengthwise. When Chiana moves it in her palm, she feels the egg vibrate, like it contains some weights shifting around inside.

She gives it back to Thäa and pulls down her pants to her knees. Thäa pushes her down to a crouching position, then licks the egg before inserting it into her private parts.

- Smooth, but what's the deal? asks Chiana.

- Pull your pants back up, says Zhaan.

Chiana does so, giggling.

- It tickles, she says, putting a hand on her crotch.

- Don't touch it, says Thäa. There's a kind of suction that holds it in place. You could be naked and running, and it wouldn't come out.

- Running?

- Yes, go to the river and back, says Zhaan maliciously. But, don't touch it.

Thäa inserts her own under her tunic as the Nebari walks away.

- WOW! they hear her yell as she comes back very slowly. I've never felt that way before.

She sits on the branch she was leaning on previously, laughing her heart out.

- It's moving inside me! she says, pulling Thäa closer to her. Come, sit with me. Come on Zhaan, you too.

In the twilight, Thäa's colours are rippling wildly as she sits in front of the Nebari. Zhaan gathers her big golden coat and ample blue skirt and sits behind Thäa, holding on to her waist, but keeping the tip of her naked feet on the ground, for balance.

- Zhaan, you're the tallest, swing us, please! asks Chiana, putting her hands on Thäa's thighs.

The branch doesn't move much, but it's enough for the three women. Amidst laughter and sighs of pleasure, they hold on to each other as the night gently folds down on them.

- Take your time, Chiana, says Zhaan, breathing heavily. Savour it.

- Yes, slowly, like Thäa said in the mist. Delvians never rush anything.

- Especially not pleasure, breathes Zhaan, bending down to kiss Thäa's shoulder.

- I… can't… wait… any longer, gasps Chiana. It's… ooooh… sooo… delicious….

Thäa unties Chiana's leather jacket and rubs her nipples with the palms of her hands. She feels the Nebari's hands jerky grasps on her thighs, moving the flesh around the wooden cup, and the flesh underneath. She moans as her body is lasciviously ripped apart by a crashing orgasm. Notwithstanding what she said earlier, Zhaan is the one with the best control over her body. She keeps her climax at bay until the other two rocks with shattering delight.

They don't hear the hum of the throne sled, or don't care. Neither can they see the smile under the infrared goggles. The throne sled come down gently to the ground, manoeuvred with only one hand, the other too busy caressing his eyebrows.

Chiana falls down from the branch, pulling the other two in her fall. They laugh, and roll around, until Thäa's booted feet hits a metallic object.

- Who's there? she asks, hoping to have no answer.

- That frelling Banik found some tracks, says the Hynerian, trying to sound casual. It might be wise to wait until dawn in the transport pod.

He hides his goggles before turning on his torch. Zhaan and Chiana had time to stand up, but they can't put on a straight face, and laugh at each other. Thäa pulls the wooden empty box to her side before getting to her feet.

Guided by the light, Stark, D'argo and Aeryn come to them, the men strangely walking faster than Aeryn can manage.

- Time to go, says D'argo.

- It will take us half an arn to get back to the transport pod, says Zhaan, looking sideways at Aeryn. Why not make a fire and wait it out?

- We don't know what's lurking in the forest, says Stark, sounding more maniac than ever. There are beasts that aren't afraid of fire, which might even be drawn to it.

- What have you taken, D'Argo? asks Chiana, standing completely still.

- Nothing, he sighs. I wasn't aware how much Aeryn fears water. She panicked, then curved down in a ball for the last three arns.

- I need to relieve myself before we go, says Aeryn, taking a step out of the light.

- Noooo, says D'argo, pulling her closer by her sleeve. Half an arn isn't that long. You can wait until then. If not, better to end up messy than dead.

She glances at Zhaan, a pleading look that would have made Chiana laugh for ages, if she wasn't in the same situation as the Sebacean.

- Slowly then, Aeryn says, on clenched teeth. We don't want to awaken anything, do we?

They have to go first to the camp and retrieve the few possessions still there, in case they have to move up to Moya fast. Aeryn looks at the three other women, two of them walking as slowly as she is. Only Zhaan isn't slowing her pace.

As Thäa bends down slowly to pick up a blanket thrown on the ground, Aeryn comes behind her.

- You little tralk, she hisses. You got us all into that frelling trick except your lover.

- She has one too, says Thäa, distracted by the warmth growing in her loins no matter what she does.

- BITCH! spits Aeryn, making a fist.

- Take it easy, girls, says D'Argo, grasping Aeryn by the collar and turning her around. I'm the one who has ruined your day out, not her.

Aeryn looks in turn at Thäa, then at Zhaan.

- It's a Delvian device, isn't it? Aeryn asks, all pretenses gone.

Zhaan inclines her head slightly in mute agreement.

- What are you talking about? asks D'argo, pulling her along on the path to the transport pod.

They walk in silence for half the distance before Thäa pulls up to Aeryn's side. She looks at D'argo's back, asking herself if he's fast enough to protect her, in case Aeryn takes her explanation the wrong way.

- That was my idea, says the Féerian. We tried it for fun.

- Why didn't you tell me what it would do? asks Aeryn, as civilly as she can, considering the unusual warmth between her legs and it's distracting consequences.

- You wouldn't have tried it if you had known it was Delvian, whispers Thäa, shameful.

- Because I can't stand the sight of Zhaan, or her voice, or her manners or anything else pertaining to her? says Aeryn quickly. Be fair, Thäa. She can't stand me either.

- I know. If you two were alone, you'd be at each other's throat in no time.

- Then why?

- I wanted to do something for you, says Thäa, to show you I can be an ally, even if I'm never a friend.

- I don't have friends.

- You already have six, and you don't even know it, says Thäa softly, as her colours ripple so much, they're visible in the dim light of the torch.

- Friends? No, they're allies, because we have the same goal.

- Give me one reason why they couldn't become your friends?

- I'll give you one for each, answers Aeryn, forgetting about the warmth in her crotch. Pilot hates me because I've been ordered to kill Moya's original Pilot. D'argo and Rygel don't trust me because they were on board at that time. Chiana dislikes me because I represent all she was running away from. Stark fears me because he was mistreated by my kind.

- And Zhaan?

- Peacekeepers invaded Delvia, answers Aeryn. She had to kill one of her own to destabilise our grip on her world.

- And why do you hate her?

The transport pod is still a long way ahead. She has to answer or Thäa will nag her until she does.

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- She keeps reminding me I was one.

- No, it must be more than that.

Aeryn looks at her, rage gleaming in her eyes.

- ALL RIGHT THEN!

She yelled at her, not caring about all the others whose faltered steps indicate they've heard her.

- I was born and raised on one of the ships that raided Delvia!


FINI




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